I DONT WANNA HEAR ABOUT IT ANYMORE

its all over the media, internet posts, blogs, wakekek...

we can theorize why these things happen, and think about a lot of things -that the world is definitely coming to an end, or at least has reached a new low. i'm sick of it. and numb. i know it all happenned just yesterday but i dont wanna hear all about it anymore.

blame society? blame the NRA? blame america's forefathers for drafting up that constitution? blame authorities for being too complacent? blame God for doing this to good people? blame his folks for sending him to America? WHO DO WE BLAME? OR DO WE BLAME AT ALL? OR SHOULD WE JUST KEEP SILENT ABOUT IT AND MOURN THOSE WHO DIED?

its a sad sad world... AND YET there are lessons to be learned... and i will go about it by asking you these questions:

have you stopped to gape (and mock) or simply not care enough for that geeky and weird individual in school, work, or neighborhood?

do you think you're so cool that you alienate those who are uncool around you? and think that they're beneath you?

or do you think you're too much of a mother teresa to announce to the world that you care enough to create a "positive" space to talk to the "poor little souls in school" - which reinforces the stereotype and stigma even more?

have you smiled at a stranger lately? someone who may have needed it to turn his/her life around?

and this is going to be the last things i'm going to say about what has happenned in Virginia Tech...

may the souls of those who died rest in peace...

MY UNCLE, THE MISUNDERSTOOD

growing up, i feared him. i visit my cousin's house and whenever we hear him come through the front door, we always head out to the back fast. he used to be my dad's bestfriend, my mom's brother whom she have a love/hate relationship with.

i didn't know him enough to truly appreciate him, but always regarded him with respect since he's my mom's older brother. whatever that went through between him and my dad didn't faze us their children from becoming close. he was a familiar site for years - a person whom i wished i shared a more fond relationship with like any other kids with their uncles. but their telenovela-ish family life prevented all that from happenning. he was known to be tough, stubborn, sometimes a mommy-spoiled rich kid who did not know any better.

Tatay... wherever you are right now, may your soul rest in eternal repose forever.