YOU KNOW YOU HAVE NO LIFE WHEN...

all you can talk about is your job. and what goes on in it.

haha. i think i'm fitting into this category.

so this week is my first week as EDC (mnemonic for the job title they gave me but i still got no freaking clue what the the job entails). stands for eCare Documentation Consultant (no, not Documentation Specialist - which is a fucked up politically correct way of describing a person that files). I CONSULT. what? i have no freaking clue. sometimes i think so hard about what i have done to land on this spot. i feel like a poser (i probably did turn out to be a dud after all...)

it i guess its exciting that way. i have yet to explore the territory to know what i am not supposed to do and what i am expected to do. i wish there was more knowledge transfer from the girl who left her post. she did tell me not to hesitate to call her. but really what i have been feeling before today was that i'm just doing a lot of repitition of some other people's job. i mean i shouldn't really complain - i get paid a lot doing things that's already done. i'm just scared i'll stagnate and be stuck in a rut.

the first day was excting and a disaster @ the same time. I moved into my little cubicle near the pantry where everybody passes and sees my monitor (i can't open multiply with a piece of mind! and then i asked my manager what she wanted me to do today. since she did not really prepare anything for me (duh- she did tell me this, she basically told me to just wing it and learn the ropes and come back to her if i have any questions) - she told me to touch base with the professional practice leaders and what not. so i panicked. i thought the whole point of working in IT is so i can hide in my cubicle and forget the rest of the world. (i'm a closet introvert).

although i've worked in an office environment previously, it had been a long time since i drafted a professional letter. if you know me, i hate that kind of thing. so i literally spent 3 hours drafting that stupid letter (and read and re-read till my eyes just shut off). after i sent it, i realized i sounded like an overzealous cheerleader. i put words like "enthusiastic", "dynamic working relationships", "central to my role", "to ensure positive results", "effective communicataon"...blah blah blah in a simple getting-to-know-me letter way too much. so very corporate. i feel like a flake. far from bedside nursing. i guess now i appreciate the informal atmosphere of bedside nursing. but hey, i'm supposed to be professional so i gave them professional. way too professional. like a flaky used car salesman... uggh.

today it kind of felt better. i've setup meetings with some educators, provided feedback on documentation, tested some new forms implemented in the real system, and sent out emails like i knew what to do. haha. i guess it should not be that bad.

as long as they dont let me draft a letter.

and oh...i have to argue a point with the educators on Friday. geesh, I would probably need to brush up on my public speaking and assertive skills (not that i had any...) without uttering the word "fuck". uuugggghhhhh...