i was once a skeptic on the whole topic of body clocks. i thought it was some cliche reason used by many single/unmarried/childless late twenty-somethings in order to.. whatever it is they want to achieve. i'm not ignorant, just apathetic. somehow the idea of women forcing the issue of marriage turns me off.
thats probably why i am going through a period of self-loathing. i am getting emotional for no reason, dreaming of some faceless babies, feeling "motherly" (if you knew me, you'll know thats ODD) towards my friends' babies. i'm irrationaly feeling negative towards tommy for taking so freaking long to ask me the question even when i still dont know if marriage is really what i want or even if i know the reason why he's taking his time (he does love me, he's just being responsible not to go into a marriage when we're both not financially ready to stand on our own feet). so yeah if this is what they call the ticking body clock, i have it worse.
ugggh, how long is this going to last?
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